Diary
May 2026
Love Me Tender
Being queer is difficult because we want ourselves to be known and to be accepted, the changes that would happen when we are accepting ourselves is inevitable, however we just hope people would love us tenderly.
The Wizard of the Kremlin
Unfortunately, it fails to serve anything beyond an "Oops! My bad!" The rise of Putin to the power feels like a rushed decision to cumulate every russian history within a decade as each plot points go so fast despite the film's length and each arc begin with the most caricature, almost retro game arc title card that merely summarize its debauchery.
April 2026
My Uncle Jens
This film has sooo many potentials when they are building up the tension and the realization, however it comes into the drain om how the conclusion goes; quick jump to the aftermath, no consequences to the main character of which the whole story was tiptoeing around, and the diabolical part of it was how the UDI was accepting about it with questioning it whilst he was sooo afraid of snitching about it so yeah, the whole tension without consequences follow just reminds you that this film is supposed to be hilarious
Primavera
Through this I just saw the most beautiful woman I've seen, Tecla Insolia
Unruly
Never knew that the Danes were that eugenics, even until the WW2 ended like this enrages me so much
Ballad of a White Cow
A slow contemplative approach on how death penalty should really be abolished; the end doesn't end. Quick to jump into conclusion, unfortunately, of which made this has a plot point in the ending however the whole build up kept me intrigued!
A Hero
man's pride is bigger than their conscience.
Juliette in Spring
A cute little movie that feels so personal for me because it highlights such dysfunctional family dynamics in a whimsical, fun way whilst unpacking a lot of traumas without essentially diminishing it. Also! The girl that plays Marylou reminds me so much of Janice Soprano and loved her to bits!
The Great Warsaw Race
all that plan, only to be part of the system 😭😭 bro thought he was free
Three Goodbyes
Life is truly worth to live in. Casually reminds me of how life can be beautifully breathtaking and cruel at the same time, but as a person, we should just live in it.
Adam's Sake
Anamaria came into clutch! Wonderful performance from both of them, even Adam because he delivers one good line that could make anyone who watches this cry instantly; highlighting the gruelling apathetic system whilst subtly punches you by blatant patriarchy that create the problem in the first place. Perhaps the understaffed problems isn't truly highlighted like Late Shift, as it tends to approach on motherhood and the absence of men in their children's lives.
My Father's Shadow
Nostalgia is such potent emotion that could transcends across people; makes my heart shattered as the film concludes in such height of the tension breaks out.
The Stranger
Foreboding and bleak, almost true to the passages however we merely feel the personal insights briefly hence we are left questioning everything (perhaps that's the intention behind it). Gorgeous back and white cinematic lense that helps to create the atmosphere, with some choice that were modernized compare to the book on colonialism therefore the lack of purposeful racism and colonialism make it an almost perfect adaptation
Couture
A lot of female characters were thrown into the narrative and was to be intertwined into a singular storyline but fail to do so because the zenith a.k.a the fashion show was anti-climatic, because one character (Angelina Jolie) has an aftermath closure whilst others were ended once the fashion show was over. I don't mean I DIDN'T like it, but there were intriguing characters that I wish could have been more explored, as in their motives more deeply because honestly, it could have been an interesting plot point.
The In-Laws 3
marcin dorociński dadbod, marcin dorociński attentive dad, marcin dorociński.
The President's Cake
Watching totalitarianism and imperialism through the children's eyes that barely survive as it is; clinging to the obligation she has to fulfill because she was chosen, regardless of her reluctance because of poverty. The ending wrecked me, and the cut into Saddam Hussein celebrating his birthday was the pinnacle of its irony.
March 2026
The Love That Remains
a quiet, almost mediative film to watch whenever you're stressed because nothing really happens until the pinnacle of the movie and that is the intention of the film. We are witnessing family dynamics trying to subtly navigate through separation, of which should be cathartic and perhaps dramatic, but it's a daily life of the aftermath; questioning the blurred lines between being partners or parents and/or friends as the love gradually transforms into something more beyond than physical or emotional, but rather an acceptance that it still there, without the need to define what it is. Perhaps that's what parents feel when they have separated, that the children are the only thing that tie them together, but the love, may still remains but different.
Case 137
ACAB, ACAB. Similar to the Polisse (2011), but more procedural and essentially putting the lens on the third party (though still parts of the oppressor) than the oppressor, this is what Polisse (2011) refuse to do: questioning the establishment and ending it with powerful stance on the oppressed / victims; we have witnessed everything through the procedural scenes but we are completely helpless to do anything, just like the people without authority in the real world because the system is protecting the oppressor. What I find it funny is that how the oppressor have unions because they feel threatened by the oppressed, why do you build an union if you don't believe in the inherited ideology from being in an union? Hypocrites, calling themselves working class but class traitor.
Romería
A magical Rohmerian summer whilst quietly uncovers the truth of your roots; isn't baffling that nobody was able to confront the truth of what really happened during the AIDS pandemic? The subtle discrimination that still lives despite that era has passed, gradually confronting the identity that was rejected. Made me smile in a way that the issue was handled well and gives the ending the main character deserves; an acknowledgement of her existence and the victims of AIDS.
Suspicion
This is why sugar mommy and sugar baby should have a clear boundaries! on the other note, it doesn't feel like Hitchcock film, which made me feel slightly thrown off because the suspense comes later, it doesn't start from the beginning and kinda disappointed by the conclusion but then again understood why it happened because the studio control. Again, unemployed men would do anything except searching for job!
