Diary
April 2026

Ready or Not

Thirst
“when this is all over we will be together. we must not meet for a while. though my face may seem cold and rigid… my heart only beats for you. when we meet again i believe we’ll finally be happy.”

Ready or Not 2: Here I Come
casting goes wild this is exactly what i didn’t know i needed

Thesis

Crash
it is something we’re all intimately involved in. the reshaping of the human body by modern technology.

Copkiller
gay as hell if you ask me

Jack's Back
March 2026

Crash

Antichrist

Pusher

The Starling Girl

Red, White & Royal Blue
giving this movie a 5 because i have free will, i’m biased and also haven’t been normal about it since i read the book and bought every edition i could get my hands on years ago
February 2026

Zero Day
pretty boy natural blood stained blonde with the holes in his sneakers “the gun may be the perfect weapon, he said, standing between a rock and a hard place. but a gun is nothing without a bullet, i replied. i am my bullet. i live my life along the perfect, parabolic arch of purpose meaning. and then there was that time that you stepped on the land mine and i never forgave you. and you could feel the entire rise and fall of the third reich at your feet. it’s a wasted life.”

It's Never Over, Jeff Buckley
“[music] it’s my deepest form of communication with people. it’ll always keep on changing, it’ll always defy anything that tries to put people in a box.” i’m convinced jeff was made from pure stardust,such an authentic and rare soul whose abstract music really finds a way to touch and create a home in your body, heart,soul, and mind; messy or not. jeff buckley you will always be beloved by me

Showgirls
heated rivalry yuri showgirls edition happy birthday kyle maclachlan

Past Lives
i was hooked from the first mention of leonard cohen. this was genuinely an insane experience i put it off for so long and have been utterly wowed i simply don’t know what to say, give me ten business days to process this

Heartbeats
the visual shots in this... absolute cinema. thankful to be alive at the same time as xavier dolan's filmography

SLC Punk
haters will call this movie too woke but i call it ahead of its time

I Killed My Mother
“tu es un poisson des grandes profondeurs. aveugle et lumineux. tu nages en eaux troubles avec la rage de l’ère moderne, mais avec l poésie fragile d’un autre temps.” “you’re a fish from great depths: blind and luminous. you’re swimming in troubled waters with the modern world’s rage, but with the frail poetry of another era.” a masterpiece

Before Sunrise
Limousine Eyelash Oh, baby with your pretty face Drop a tear in my wineglass Look at those big eyes See what you mean to me Sweet cakes and milkshakes I am a delusion angel I am a fantasy parade I want you to know what I think Don’t want you to guess anymore You have no idea where I came from We have no idea where we’re going Lodged in life Like two branches in a river Flowing downstream Caught in the current I’ll carry you, you’ll carry me That’s how it could be Don’t you know me? Don’t you know me by now?