1985

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written by

fox

you don't have to tell me... 'til you're ready. and i'll try and be ready when you are Decided to watch this because I saw Cory Michael Smith in Saturday Night and wanted to check out his other films and picked this one. I was not prepared for this. CMS's character goes back home for the holidays but it's much more than that, he's an empty shell of what he used to be and the sickness has consumed him; this isn't a reunion for him, it's attending his own funeral and making ammends with the people around him devastating as it seems. With the opening scene of Adrian and his father you can immediately tell there is some distance between them (even without knowing Adrian's backstory) so you can really tell that it's going to set the tone and be the forefront of the film With his relationship with his mother they have a more closer relationship; she's the doting mother, she prays for him and loves him. She knows about his secret lifestyle yet she still cares for him. That last scene of them in the car together was going to be the last time he saw his mum and they both knew it, he was already mourning and grieving the lost time they'll never get back. Adrian sees himself in Andrew, they have a strained relationship at the beginning but they open up with their love of music. Adrian knows that Andrew is closeted and doesn't want him to go through what he wanted to, but he knows he'll never be there to guide him through it so he gives him a goodbye tape with a monologue about life, acceptance, fitting in and knowing who you are, it said everything he needs to hear. In that short amount of time together they rebuilded their loving sibling relationship but it's still bittersweet I felt so empty after watching this, I cried so much. Cory Michael Smith was amazing in this and this was such a beautiful film.